Irregularities

Last time I felt like this she turned out to be lesbian. A crazy lesbian too. Still, she had the most expressive eyes I have ever set eyes on. Not that I was able to look her steady in the eye. Far from it, I was actually trembling when I was getting her number, while she and her "girlfriend" were smiling sympathetically.

After all these years I feel like almost nothing has changed. I am still completely blind when it comes to signs, still involuntarily consider the whole other gender race as sisters, and still as irrational in my crushes as ever. Anything can be expected after having a crush on batgirl from the cartoon "The Batman" (Best cartoon eyes ever btw!).

You want to stay, and in the same time you want to run away as if wild horses are at your heels. You want to talk, but you're afraid you'll reveal more about your sorry self than you should. Torn between igniting and burying that inexplicable weird feeling of yearning to something you don't understand and you know 100% you will never have. Maybe this is why you yearned for it anyway, just another method of the psychological masochism library you bossess.

You know you'll never fall in love when your crushes turn you into a silent, inarticulate, depressed ass.

And I blame another R for this: Religion.