Irregularities

Funny how I feel something that I can't understand, and I know that this something is triggered by a certain someone, but you just don't know how to deal with it. Why would someone I barely talked to and only seen for an hour or so trigger such strange feelings? It just does NOT make any sense! I know she had the most expressive face I have ever seen, but still, if she read this she'll think I'm a weirdo. Well, I think if anyone read this will think I'm a weirdo. That does not change the fact that I did have a strange feeling that I cannot fathom.

And I ran away from her. I ran away from the strangeness of my feeling. I tried to kill it as I always did with any other feeling I have ever had. Only by accident do I come here today to write about it. That sounds funny. I a day or two my feeling will die out like any other feeling I ever had, but whether it will leave a scar like many feelings did I am yet to know.

Again, by accident, yesterday I was talking with a friend of mine about almost the same thing. The inability to make advances. Even when advances were like the most natural thing in the world, we would remain friends. It's like a world of possibilities never discovered or tread. Feels pathetic too. And lonely. And then all this triggered by a certain someone who reminded me of a certain someone else just because they both live in the same country. Funny how my mind works.